Emptiness!

Here I am, watching the sea breeze as it hit my face bringing back thousands of memories from the past. As the waves touch the seashores and return back to the sea reminding me of the time you came like some thunderstorm and left like you never existed. The water still passes through the stones, making paths that never existed, and runs like life is still there, in the world. But honey, I want to scream to the face of it that it shouldn’t. Nothing should be the same because I don’t feel the same. I don’t feel lively anymore since you’ve left. You’ve created an emptiness, a hole that no one can ever fill again.
But the world doesn’t work that way, does it?
The birds still hum as they pass in groups as if telling us that life is beautiful. The winds still flow the same, making the trees look like they are dancing to the tunes of nature. The water still runs through the canal making sounds as if trying its best to make every living being feel lively.
But you know what the sad part is? I don’t feel lively at all. Something deep down hurts and I can’t even figure it out. I don’t know if it is overthinking or if it in real. I laugh with my friends, and I go to the same coffee shop every weekend to drink the same cappuccino with extra form and light a cigarette, but I don’t feel the same anymore. As cliche as it feels, you’ve changed me for real and I don’t know if it’s for good or not.